I have absolutely no idea what to write. Just trying out something a friend told me to do to get inspired to write. I haven't written on this thing in forever. Heck I highly doubt anybody actually reads this thing but whatever. Since I've written here last, I've got my GED and my permit. Been practicing driving on Thursdays with my brother-in-law.
Another thing was my two week vacation out to Connecticut. The first week was good. The second week, the concerts were good but the drama sucked. Don't feel like going back to that though. It's in the past.
Speaking of concerts, I get to see Honor Society on November 1st. I love those guys. They make great music, are so funny and soooo nice, and know how to put on one heck of a show. I had so much fun at their Full Moon Crazy show that I went to in Boston on my vacation, so I can't wait to see them again.
The only possible down side is that I have to go with my mother. But as long as she doesn't do anything to piss me off, it should be alright. And as well as she lets me do the meet and greet after the show. If not, the car ride back may not be all that fun.
Been babysitting my niece, Taylor, on Thursdays and Fridays. Meaning that is where I will be for the next two days. I have limited computer access there which means if I'm in the mood to write tomorrow, I'm going to be pissed. Yes I know there is pen and paper and I'll have that with me but the things I write, all the stuff before where I'm at, in on my laptop and a website. Meaning if I want to refer to that past material, I'll need a computer.
Alright I think this is pointless enough. I mean it pretty much skips everywhere. Whatever.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Sunday, March 22, 2009
1 day...that's it?!
So tomorrow is March 23rd.
To most people that day has no significance whatsoever.
To me however it means one thing...
my birthday.
Now most people would be excited for such a thing...and I'll admit, most years I am.
However I don't want to turn 19.
I have nothing against the age...I just don't want to be it.
Why?
Well it means that I am almost out of my teens...and getting older.
I don't know...I just would kind of like to stay in my teens for a little bit longer...even though they haven't been my best years.
Yes I know it sounds stupid...but I can't help how I feel.
I'm pretty sure it's just fears though.
What fears exactly? Well I'm not entirely sure but I have an idea.
Although a bright side to turning 19...only two more years until I can legally drink.
Being able to obtain alcohol and legally enjoy it...well that could make hanging out with my mom more enjoyable at times.
Which sounds horrible, I know, but it's true.
We don't have the best relationship...and actually most days we don't talk...mainly because I don't live with her or call her but still.
There are things that happened in the past...things said just last year...and it's taking me a long time to forgive her for those things that happened when I was in middle school.
The things she did aren't as bad as what other parents do...like oh abusing a kid.
But they were emotionally scarring.
And this blog post is getting much more serious than I planned...so therefore I'm going to stop now.
To most people that day has no significance whatsoever.
To me however it means one thing...
my birthday.
Now most people would be excited for such a thing...and I'll admit, most years I am.
However I don't want to turn 19.
I have nothing against the age...I just don't want to be it.
Why?
Well it means that I am almost out of my teens...and getting older.
I don't know...I just would kind of like to stay in my teens for a little bit longer...even though they haven't been my best years.
Yes I know it sounds stupid...but I can't help how I feel.
I'm pretty sure it's just fears though.
What fears exactly? Well I'm not entirely sure but I have an idea.
Although a bright side to turning 19...only two more years until I can legally drink.
Being able to obtain alcohol and legally enjoy it...well that could make hanging out with my mom more enjoyable at times.
Which sounds horrible, I know, but it's true.
We don't have the best relationship...and actually most days we don't talk...mainly because I don't live with her or call her but still.
There are things that happened in the past...things said just last year...and it's taking me a long time to forgive her for those things that happened when I was in middle school.
The things she did aren't as bad as what other parents do...like oh abusing a kid.
But they were emotionally scarring.
And this blog post is getting much more serious than I planned...so therefore I'm going to stop now.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
la-de-da
Well I haven't written on this thing in a while.
Not surprising for me though.
I don't do much so it's not like I have anything interesting to report.
Let's see...the Jonas Brothers world tour information is supposed to come out today.
I'm really hoping that it does get posted today...
and I'm really hoping that they come to Michigan.
If they do, maybe I'll be able to see them this time around.
Um...my niece is coming over tonight just like every Wednesday.
Which means I should actually go to bed soon so I have gotten some sleep.
Anything else...oh my birthday is coming up.
Actually it will be my birthday in 12 days.
You did your math correctly if you figured out that my birthday is the 23rd.
I'll be 19...which is weird cause it doesn't feel like I'm almost out of my teens.
But I am.
Nothing else to report really...and I really don't feel like trying to come up with anything interesting to say.
Maybe I'll actually go to bed soon...then again probably not.
Until next time.
<3
Crystal
Not surprising for me though.
I don't do much so it's not like I have anything interesting to report.
Let's see...the Jonas Brothers world tour information is supposed to come out today.
I'm really hoping that it does get posted today...
and I'm really hoping that they come to Michigan.
If they do, maybe I'll be able to see them this time around.
Um...my niece is coming over tonight just like every Wednesday.
Which means I should actually go to bed soon so I have gotten some sleep.
Anything else...oh my birthday is coming up.
Actually it will be my birthday in 12 days.
You did your math correctly if you figured out that my birthday is the 23rd.
I'll be 19...which is weird cause it doesn't feel like I'm almost out of my teens.
But I am.
Nothing else to report really...and I really don't feel like trying to come up with anything interesting to say.
Maybe I'll actually go to bed soon...then again probably not.
Until next time.
<3
Crystal
Monday, February 23, 2009
can't believe
not much happening here but that's nothing new.
went over to my sister's on Friday to watch Taylor while they went shopping. went pretty well.
Saturday was still there. stayed there until about 5 o'clock because Taylor has a birthday party. she got plenty of gifts; a stuffed leopard and monkey plus a Michigan outfit from my dad, brother and me. she even had her own cake to dig into. plenty of grabbing some and moving her hands so the cake and frosting would go on the floor with some making it's way onto the wall.
at the beginning of the party, she seemed to want to hang out with me for a while. i don't get why the kid likes me so much but i love that she does.
Tomorrow is her actual birthday and i so can't believe that she is turning one. it doesn't seem like it's been that long. i mean yes she is walking some and talking (mostly saying 'kitty' and 'bah') but it still doesn't seem like it's been a year since she's been born.
tomorrow is also when the soundtrack to the Jonas 3D movie comes out....i want to get that not going to lie.
a month from today actually is my birthday. i'll be turning 19. i'm almost out of the teens which is weird. doesn't feel like i should be out of those yet.
and i think that's enough of pointless rambling for one post.
went over to my sister's on Friday to watch Taylor while they went shopping. went pretty well.
Saturday was still there. stayed there until about 5 o'clock because Taylor has a birthday party. she got plenty of gifts; a stuffed leopard and monkey plus a Michigan outfit from my dad, brother and me. she even had her own cake to dig into. plenty of grabbing some and moving her hands so the cake and frosting would go on the floor with some making it's way onto the wall.
at the beginning of the party, she seemed to want to hang out with me for a while. i don't get why the kid likes me so much but i love that she does.
Tomorrow is her actual birthday and i so can't believe that she is turning one. it doesn't seem like it's been that long. i mean yes she is walking some and talking (mostly saying 'kitty' and 'bah') but it still doesn't seem like it's been a year since she's been born.
tomorrow is also when the soundtrack to the Jonas 3D movie comes out....i want to get that not going to lie.
a month from today actually is my birthday. i'll be turning 19. i'm almost out of the teens which is weird. doesn't feel like i should be out of those yet.
and i think that's enough of pointless rambling for one post.
Thursday, February 19, 2009
no idea
okay so it seems that my niece seems to love me.
i mean tonight there were times where my dad would hold out his hands to her to ask if she wanted to come to him...
and instead she would reach out to me.
i love that she loves me and everything but i'm pretty sure it hurts my dad just a little bit.
i know that she loves him too though.
and i know that he knows it as well.
speaking of my niece...
i get to babysit her again on Friday...
and i'll be staying the night over there once again.
this time i will be sure to actually sleep though seeing as my niece Taylor's birthday party is Saturday.
i so can't believe that she is turning one.
i know understand what parents mean when they say their kids are growing up so fast.
i know she's not my child but it seems like just a few weeks ago that she was brought home from the hospital and all that.
i love that she's walking and saying a few words.
mostly "kitty" but still...
it's so cute.
and i can't wait until she starts saying more.
although i know i may get annoyed by it at times...
but there's a bright side to that...
i get to send her back to her parents at the end of the day.
haha not nice but true.
i just hope that as she grows up she wants to hang out with me and things...
hope she thinks of me as a cool aunt.
it would kinda suck if she didn't.
anyway there is a Crystal ramble for the day.
i mean tonight there were times where my dad would hold out his hands to her to ask if she wanted to come to him...
and instead she would reach out to me.
i love that she loves me and everything but i'm pretty sure it hurts my dad just a little bit.
i know that she loves him too though.
and i know that he knows it as well.
speaking of my niece...
i get to babysit her again on Friday...
and i'll be staying the night over there once again.
this time i will be sure to actually sleep though seeing as my niece Taylor's birthday party is Saturday.
i so can't believe that she is turning one.
i know understand what parents mean when they say their kids are growing up so fast.
i know she's not my child but it seems like just a few weeks ago that she was brought home from the hospital and all that.
i love that she's walking and saying a few words.
mostly "kitty" but still...
it's so cute.
and i can't wait until she starts saying more.
although i know i may get annoyed by it at times...
but there's a bright side to that...
i get to send her back to her parents at the end of the day.
haha not nice but true.
i just hope that as she grows up she wants to hang out with me and things...
hope she thinks of me as a cool aunt.
it would kinda suck if she didn't.
anyway there is a Crystal ramble for the day.
Sunday, February 15, 2009
down this road again
it seems like i'm going back to the mood i was in last weekend.
the mood that Ashley has called my emo mood...
cause apparently i gave it to her...
and it seems like i'm getting it back.
i don't want it back though.
i hated having it the first time around.
the random feelings of just wanting to break down into tears.
the tears forming ready to fall
and then the few times where they did actually fall.
it just all sucked.
maybe i'll emerge myself into day dreams or something to try and get myself out of it.
i just hope that if i do that it actually works.
the mood that Ashley has called my emo mood...
cause apparently i gave it to her...
and it seems like i'm getting it back.
i don't want it back though.
i hated having it the first time around.
the random feelings of just wanting to break down into tears.
the tears forming ready to fall
and then the few times where they did actually fall.
it just all sucked.
maybe i'll emerge myself into day dreams or something to try and get myself out of it.
i just hope that if i do that it actually works.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
SNL
okay so i never watch Saturday Night Live really...
unless there is someone on that i really want to see.
for example the Jonas Brothers.
and i figured when i heard that they were going to be on the show that they would do great.
they are always funny in their own videos so i figured they would probably be pretty much naturals on SNL.
and i know that there are going to be people that disagree with me.
but i don't care...
cause i'm sticking to my opinion.
their first two skits were awesome.
the second one had me laughing so hard that my brother actually came into my room to check on me and make sure i was okay.
glad to know that he cares about me enough to make sure i'm okay.
and their performance of "Tonight"
loved it.
Nick Jonas...winking at the camera...why does he have to be 16?
of course though he's Ashley's and i'm not going to try to take him from her.
she can have him.
and Kevin...
he's so adorable.
the looks he made as well...
so amazing.
don't know how anybody could ever dislike or hate him.
it's not possible for me.
and then Joe...
so sexy.
love him.
and i especially love when he's being funny...
makes him that much sexier.
the same can totally be said about Nick and Kevin as well.
and yay for them performing "Video Girl"
and holy pancakes!
you can hear Kevin sing.
i love that.
he so needs to sing more often.
and oh boy did the back up band look good as well.
and this is my pointless blog post for the day.
unless there is someone on that i really want to see.
for example the Jonas Brothers.
and i figured when i heard that they were going to be on the show that they would do great.
they are always funny in their own videos so i figured they would probably be pretty much naturals on SNL.
and i know that there are going to be people that disagree with me.
but i don't care...
cause i'm sticking to my opinion.
their first two skits were awesome.
the second one had me laughing so hard that my brother actually came into my room to check on me and make sure i was okay.
glad to know that he cares about me enough to make sure i'm okay.
and their performance of "Tonight"
loved it.
Nick Jonas...winking at the camera...why does he have to be 16?
of course though he's Ashley's and i'm not going to try to take him from her.
she can have him.
and Kevin...
he's so adorable.
the looks he made as well...
so amazing.
don't know how anybody could ever dislike or hate him.
it's not possible for me.
and then Joe...
so sexy.
love him.
and i especially love when he's being funny...
makes him that much sexier.
the same can totally be said about Nick and Kevin as well.
and yay for them performing "Video Girl"
and holy pancakes!
you can hear Kevin sing.
i love that.
he so needs to sing more often.
and oh boy did the back up band look good as well.
and this is my pointless blog post for the day.
the worse holiday ever
so it's official Valentine's Day...
and in my opinion the worse holiday ever.
but that may be because i've never had anyone to spend the day with.
never had a 'special someone'
i know someday i will though.
and in all honesty...
i'm hoping that that 'someday' happens sometime in the near future.
cause seriously the whole waiting thing sucks.
but then again i need to get out of the house in order to find someone...
cause i definitely don't want it to be one of my brother's friends.
i definitely need to start making some changes in my life.
for one...asking my dad to take me driving.
i need to practice so i can get my license.
and then i need to fill out applications for jobs.
i have two right now...
but i need help for them and emailed my cousin but she hasn't emailed me back.
i just kinda need to grow up some.
do things that people my age do...
cause like my cousin has said...
it's kinda like i'm stuck at 15 or 16 or something like that.
okay i have no idea how this got so off track.
i mean it's titled 'the worse holiday ever' and yet i'm totally off topic.
then again rambling is something that i do.
anyway...
so far this Valentine's day hasn't be so bad.
i got a comment from a guy in this band that i love wishing me a happy valentine's day.
and i'm getting to talk to one of my best friends/sisters.
oh and the band that i was talking about....
Days Difference.
check them out.
and in my opinion the worse holiday ever.
but that may be because i've never had anyone to spend the day with.
never had a 'special someone'
i know someday i will though.
and in all honesty...
i'm hoping that that 'someday' happens sometime in the near future.
cause seriously the whole waiting thing sucks.
but then again i need to get out of the house in order to find someone...
cause i definitely don't want it to be one of my brother's friends.
i definitely need to start making some changes in my life.
for one...asking my dad to take me driving.
i need to practice so i can get my license.
and then i need to fill out applications for jobs.
i have two right now...
but i need help for them and emailed my cousin but she hasn't emailed me back.
i just kinda need to grow up some.
do things that people my age do...
cause like my cousin has said...
it's kinda like i'm stuck at 15 or 16 or something like that.
okay i have no idea how this got so off track.
i mean it's titled 'the worse holiday ever' and yet i'm totally off topic.
then again rambling is something that i do.
anyway...
so far this Valentine's day hasn't be so bad.
i got a comment from a guy in this band that i love wishing me a happy valentine's day.
and i'm getting to talk to one of my best friends/sisters.
oh and the band that i was talking about....
Days Difference.
check them out.
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Hey there!
Hi there to anybody who bothers to read this. I'm Crystal. Um..I have no idea what to say right now. I mainly just made this account so I could...idk get things off my chest I suppose. Of course I have a livejournal account that I could do that on...but I guess I can do that here now as well.
Of course though I tend to keep things bottled up inside so who knows how often I will even post on this. Anyway I guess I can tell a little about me. I'm 18...19 in a few months. I live in Michigan...and well I don't know what else to say. I guess if anybody actually reads this, if you want to know more about me just ask me something.
That's all for now. Talk to you sometime...maybe.
Of course though I tend to keep things bottled up inside so who knows how often I will even post on this. Anyway I guess I can tell a little about me. I'm 18...19 in a few months. I live in Michigan...and well I don't know what else to say. I guess if anybody actually reads this, if you want to know more about me just ask me something.
That's all for now. Talk to you sometime...maybe.
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