can't believe

not much happening here but that's nothing new.
went over to my sister's on Friday to watch Taylor while they went shopping. went pretty well.
Saturday was still there. stayed there until about 5 o'clock because Taylor has a birthday party. she got plenty of gifts; a stuffed leopard and monkey plus a Michigan outfit from my dad, brother and me. she even had her own cake to dig into. plenty of grabbing some and moving her hands so the cake and frosting would go on the floor with some making it's way onto the wall.
at the beginning of the party, she seemed to want to hang out with me for a while. i don't get why the kid likes me so much but i love that she does.
Tomorrow is her actual birthday and i so can't believe that she is turning one. it doesn't seem like it's been that long. i mean yes she is walking some and talking (mostly saying 'kitty' and 'bah') but it still doesn't seem like it's been a year since she's been born.
tomorrow is also when the soundtrack to the Jonas 3D movie comes out....i want to get that not going to lie.
a month from today actually is my birthday. i'll be turning 19. i'm almost out of the teens which is weird. doesn't feel like i should be out of those yet.
and i think that's enough of pointless rambling for one post.

no idea

okay so it seems that my niece seems to love me.
i mean tonight there were times where my dad would hold out his hands to her to ask if she wanted to come to him...
and instead she would reach out to me.
i love that she loves me and everything but i'm pretty sure it hurts my dad just a little bit.
i know that she loves him too though.
and i know that he knows it as well.
speaking of my niece...
i get to babysit her again on Friday...
and i'll be staying the night over there once again.
this time i will be sure to actually sleep though seeing as my niece Taylor's birthday party is Saturday.
i so can't believe that she is turning one.
i know understand what parents mean when they say their kids are growing up so fast.
i know she's not my child but it seems like just a few weeks ago that she was brought home from the hospital and all that.
i love that she's walking and saying a few words.
mostly "kitty" but still...
it's so cute.
and i can't wait until she starts saying more.
although i know i may get annoyed by it at times...
but there's a bright side to that...
i get to send her back to her parents at the end of the day.
haha not nice but true.
i just hope that as she grows up she wants to hang out with me and things...
hope she thinks of me as a cool aunt.
it would kinda suck if she didn't.
anyway there is a Crystal ramble for the day.

down this road again

it seems like i'm going back to the mood i was in last weekend.
the mood that Ashley has called my emo mood...
cause apparently i gave it to her...
and it seems like i'm getting it back.
i don't want it back though.
i hated having it the first time around.
the random feelings of just wanting to break down into tears.
the tears forming ready to fall
and then the few times where they did actually fall.
it just all sucked.
maybe i'll emerge myself into day dreams or something to try and get myself out of it.
i just hope that if i do that it actually works.

SNL

okay so i never watch Saturday Night Live really...
unless there is someone on that i really want to see.
for example the Jonas Brothers.
and i figured when i heard that they were going to be on the show that they would do great.
they are always funny in their own videos so i figured they would probably be pretty much naturals on SNL.
and i know that there are going to be people that disagree with me.
but i don't care...
cause i'm sticking to my opinion.
their first two skits were awesome.
the second one had me laughing so hard that my brother actually came into my room to check on me and make sure i was okay.
glad to know that he cares about me enough to make sure i'm okay.
and their performance of "Tonight"
loved it.
Nick Jonas...winking at the camera...why does he have to be 16?
of course though he's Ashley's and i'm not going to try to take him from her.
she can have him.
and Kevin...
he's so adorable.
the looks he made as well...
so amazing.
don't know how anybody could ever dislike or hate him.
it's not possible for me.
and then Joe...
so sexy.
love him.
and i especially love when he's being funny...
makes him that much sexier.
the same can totally be said about Nick and Kevin as well.
and yay for them performing "Video Girl"
and holy pancakes!
you can hear Kevin sing.
i love that.
he so needs to sing more often.
and oh boy did the back up band look good as well.
and this is my pointless blog post for the day.

the worse holiday ever

so it's official Valentine's Day...
and in my opinion the worse holiday ever.
but that may be because i've never had anyone to spend the day with.
never had a 'special someone'
i know someday i will though.
and in all honesty...
i'm hoping that that 'someday' happens sometime in the near future.
cause seriously the whole waiting thing sucks.
but then again i need to get out of the house in order to find someone...
cause i definitely don't want it to be one of my brother's friends.
i definitely need to start making some changes in my life.
for one...asking my dad to take me driving.
i need to practice so i can get my license.
and then i need to fill out applications for jobs.
i have two right now...
but i need help for them and emailed my cousin but she hasn't emailed me back.
i just kinda need to grow up some.
do things that people my age do...
cause like my cousin has said...
it's kinda like i'm stuck at 15 or 16 or something like that.

okay i have no idea how this got so off track.
i mean it's titled 'the worse holiday ever' and yet i'm totally off topic.
then again rambling is something that i do.
anyway...
so far this Valentine's day hasn't be so bad.
i got a comment from a guy in this band that i love wishing me a happy valentine's day.
and i'm getting to talk to one of my best friends/sisters.

oh and the band that i was talking about....
Days Difference.
check them out.